the realization that the place that you are standing today, isnt where you wanted to be... All that you worked for, your whole life, all that you were, and were not, so that you could be someone at a later date - all that has come to naught, as you are not where you want to be.

That is what she felt as she took stock of her life. She was nearing the big 3-0 figure in a couple of years, and it struck her, that nothing was done. nothing that she had wanted to achieve, was achieved yet. she looked at her life, and it probably was just another life. a below average life, in a below average city with below average expectations.