Undeserved

Me 6 months ago, looks at current me and is disgusted.

I have let me down.

I'm sorry doesn't come close.

I need some sympathy and pity, for I don't deserve anything else.

Me 6 months ago asks of me now... How is it that I touch my child with these hands? How do I kiss her with that mouth?

I drown in guilt. Wish I was drowning in real.

Always hated death by drowning... Always been afraid of it... Now hoping to drown in acid and die.